Living In The Moment
Note to myself: Yesterday is gone, I don't know if I'll be here tomorrow, so all I have is today. I will live it to the fullest!
Have you ever been around someone who continually talks about the past and uses statements like…I wish I could live that part of my life over or...I shouldn't have...or I couldn't...etc. I can't resist saying, “yesterday is gone, all we can do is learn from our mistakes and not repeat them.” But what valuable lessons we learn. I believe we are here to learn. My husband Doug (who passed away in 2008) while learning one of his lessons, looked up at the sky and said, "okay, I got it… now, can we move on to something else?" Of course, that was after he had been shown the lesson for several days, in different ways. I believe that God puts people in our lives when we need them. He designed us to need other people so we can learn from each other. I have had so many wonderful lessons in my life, but I'd like to share the one I think was the most valuable:
My dad had committed suicide, my husband was in the hospital in a deep depression and my oldest grandson, who was just a baby, was having his fourth surgery. I woke up in the middle of the night, two nights in a row, with my heart throbbing and fear running through my body. I decided to go to the doctor after the second incident. Dr. Kitchens, who was a very wise man, looked at my blood pressure status and said, "I know about your dad, I attended his funeral, but what else is going on in your life?" I told him, but ended it with, "but I am a strong person!" He looked at me and said "you're only strong, when you can admit your weaknesses! I've known you since you were a little girl. You were the perfect daughter, the perfect wife, and the perfect mother - when are you going to allow yourself to be human?" He ordered me to take the rest of the week off. I was to go home, pray when I needed to pray, cry when I needed to cry and just allow myself to be human. He added, "You haven't even grieved your moms' death, you were too busy holding up your dad." He instructed me not to leave my home until the following Monday. He handed me a prescription for my blood pressure on the way out the door and changed my life forever.
So, from that day forward, I could just be me. What a beautiful gift! If we live in the now with awareness, we see how beautiful life is, as God intended.
We find that we are really spiritual beings, having a physical experience. We realize that we all have a purpose in life and if we live each day to the fullest, we find a beautiful inner peace.
Toni True-Wills, Ph.D.